For the first time in a long time, I’ve taken a hard look at my dating habits and my overall thoughts on relationships. I’ve been fortunate enough to have dated both casually and seriously some fantastic women over the years and am lucky to be friends with many of them still. Heck…a girl I dated about 3 or 4 years ago called me out of the blue the other day because she said I sounded “sad” in my blog and was worried about me. Anyways…back to the issue.

I’m very torn right now. On one hand I want to date but on the other, for the first time in forever, I have no real desire to have a physical relationship with someone. I believe the last time I decided to be celibate was maybe 5 years ago and that lasted for 9 months. I don’t know…I’m just in a really weird place.

There was someone who for the last year wanted to date me, seriously, and I kept putting it off. I finally decided to give it a chance but that opportunity had passed. I have the opportunity to date someone right now who is quite fantastic…but the thought of being physical and intimate with someone…it just isn’t where my head is.

I like love sex and anyone who knows me is aware of how physical I am. I just don’t want that aspect to be in control right now where in the past I’ve let the physical take over…even when I knew someone was wrong for me…just for the fun factor of a month or three.

Hopefully I’ll get my head back in the game shortly…in the meantime it is an odd feeling to want a relationship…but at the same time being unwilling to go looking for a new one.