I almost started off this post by saying I have some weird habits. I the realized that was a bit like saying Alexander the Great wanted just a small bit of real estate or that Christopher Columbus was just off on a day cruise. I understand everyone has their inherent quirks but perhaps mine might be more numerous than most. The more I think about it, what is a quirk anyways? Is it something negative or is it just a character trait people associate with you or something else?

Several times this year I was told that I’m intense but not passionate. Tonight I’m in one of those odd moods I get into from time to time when I’m sad…on the verge of crying quite frankly…and I don’t know why. So what is intensity vs passion? In hindsight, I do believe the person I had this conversation was right…but how do you compare the two when you are not certain what one is?

I understand I’ve got that…drive…for lack of a better word that pushes you past what most people would consider a quitting point. Whether it is a physical challenge or the need to learn about something. When I think about it, while at times very convenient, it can also be unhealthy. I love to learn about new things and to become above average in knowledge or skill at these avenues…but then I tend to be done after 3 or 4 or 5 years. Is that the difference with passion? It is a love or desire you just can’t give up?

Almost everything to me is a goal to be conquered and I don’t know if that is always a bad thing though at times I imagine it can lead to people feeling like they are some big checklist in Kevin’s master plan. Where am I going with this? I don’t know! Haha!

I believe I may be getting sad because I feel change coming and that is one of the few things that scares me. I know how to be how I am now. I have two potentially huge projects coming up in the next 2 weeks. If I land both of them, it would be enough I believe to finally push me over the edge to buy a real house…probably in Ocala because there are some GREAT deals there…and that is scary.

I don’t know…I’m getting to that point where I’m blabbering more than I should and am probably not making near the sense I should…if I made any in the first place. I guess I’ll see what happens in the next few weeks.